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Martin thought that: "It was too late to find salvation!"

Hi Martin!
You write, that You: Have believed in Jesus in Your entire life and always believed that You one day would become a Christian. But You have not experienced what You been seeking and now You think it is a little too late. The problems You write about in Your letter is a token that God has not forsaken You and that God loves You. The feeling You have is a obvious token that God and Christ is working in Your spirit. The Bible says, that Jesus promised in His word; he who seeks finds. Matth.7:7. (The New English Bible)
In your question You refer to Hebr. chapt. 6, that says: "For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted the heavenly gift, and have become partakers of the Holy Spirit, and have tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, if they fall away, to renew them again to repentance, since they crucify again for themselves the Son of God, and put Him to an open shame."Hebr. 6:4-6. ( New King James Version)

Martin, the Bible-text in Hebr. chapt. 6 You are refering to is not aimed at you, because it is a big difference to struggle and search for God and Christ. And to have God´s Word and Christ in your spirit and deliberately trample God´s Word and Christ under your feet.

The experience and feeling You describe in your letter many seekers are going through.

Martin, as You can see on the picture below, these people are going separate ways. One of them is walking away from Jesus Christ into the spiritual darkness. The other one is walking towards Jesus Christ, who is the spiritual light. See the symbols on the picture below.

To the human beings who are walking away from Jesus Christ, the Word of God says: "Make no mistake about this: God is not to be fooled; a man reaps what he sows."Gal.6:7. (The New English Bible) See the symbol above to the left and the symbol down to the left.

To the human beings, who come to Jesus Christ, Jesus says: "He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die." John 11:25-26 (New King James Version) See the symbol above to the right and the symbol down to the right.

Martin, every human being have got the possibility to choose the will of the devil, or to choose the will of God. In ours thoughts and with our belief we ourselves choose the way to a negative life in darkness. Or the way to a bright and happy life through our belief in Jesus Christ. See symbol down to the left and the symbol down to the right.

Without knowing the power which is concealed in negative thoughts many people bind themselves to negative thoughts.

Martin, You are not alone in your ignorance, to bind yourself to the negative. You saw the negative in the Bible-text in Hebr. chapt. 6, and You let yourself be deceived into a wrong path. In your wrong thoughts You let yourselv be bind to the negative, because You did not see God´s Goodness and Love towards you. Because of your negative thoughts You didn´t see God´s Word in its entirety.

To those, who in their thoughts, have let themselves be deceived into a wrong path, God´s word clearly and definitely says: "“Return to Me,” says the LORD of hosts, “and I will return to you,” says the LORD of hosts." Zech. 1:3. (New King James Version)
It definitely means: Turn unto the positive, and the positive shall turn unto you. It is in our thoughts we decide if we want to believe in the negative or believe in the positive. We ourselves decide if we want to have doubts about God`s Grace and Goodness. If we want to believe in Jesus Christ and His possibility to help us.

Listen! This concerns all human beings. And so says Jesus Christ: "..and as you have believed, so let it be done for you." Matt. 8:13. (The New King James Version)
Jesus says that our negative thoughts is just like a thief and say: "The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10. ( New King James Version) See the symbol above to the right.
In the Old Testament You can read about Job who could not escape the consequences of his negative thoughts. And so say God´s Word: "; a man reaps what he sows." Gal. 6:7. (The New English Bible)
With our negative thoughts we have got the possibility to sow the negative. And as a consequence we reap the negative. We have also got the possibility to sow the positive with ours thoughts and then as a consequence we reap the positive.

Jesus said to Martha: "Did I not tell you that if you have faith you will see the glory of God?" John 11:40 (The New English Bible) See the symbol above to the right.
The story about Job in The Old Testament tells you that he was married and had a wife and children. He was very rich and had a big farm. Suddenly he began to think in a negative way and he lost all he possessed.

In his negative darkness he could not see, that his negative thoughts were the cause of his suffering, instead he put the blame on anxiety and fear and said: "For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me, And what I dreaded has happened to me." Job. 3:25. (New King James Version)
The Bible teaches, that darkness and the negative can only be present when the light and the positive is absent. The devil with all of his negativism can only be present when Jesus Christ, who is positive in a spiritual way, is absent in our thoughts. See the symbol above to the left.

The Bible speaks of sin towards the holy Spirit. Sin towards the holy Spirit means, that you trample God`s Word under your feet and walks away from His Holy truths. See symbol above to the left.

Secular people and the lukewarm Christians, who don`t want to have anything to do with Jesus Christ and Sanctification in their spirit, they sin against the Holy Spirit. See symbol above to the left.

The symbol above to the left shows clearly that if man is walking away from Jesus Christ and God`s Word, she lands in a spiritual darkness. On the path away from God there is no rescue for man just like Hebr. 6:4-6 speaks of. See symbol above the to left.

But if man returns to Jesus Christ, as we see on the image here above to the right then there is salvation. Because so says God`s word: "Return to Me", says the LORD of hosts,..."and I will return to you." Sech. 1:3. Mal. 3:7. ( New King James Version). See symbol above to the right.
As we can see here in the Bible-texts, there is salvation for that person who is seeking God and Christ in a sincere way. The Bible says to everyone who is seeking: "Come now, and let us reason togehter", says the LORD, "Though your sins are like scarlet, They shall be as white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, They shall be as wool. If you are willing and obedient, You shall eat the good of the land."Isaiah. 1:18-19. ( New King James Version) See symbol above to the right.
Listen: Jesus says to you: "All that the Father gives Me will come to Me; and the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out." John 6:37. (New King James Version) See symbol above to the right.
Several of the Bible-texts show us very clearly that it is not all up with those people who are seeking, because Jesus says, that: "..and he who seeks finds,..." Matth. 7:8. (New King James Version)
We human beings are seeking to find Peace and Joy. We seek the true Love and the true Purity and the Righteousness. And we do not see, that what we are seeking exists in our inner man. Jesus said to his disciples , that He and the Father would come and dwell in our inner man. John 14:23.
Jesus said to his disciples that: "For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you." Luke 17:21. (New King James Version) See symbol above to the right.
The Bible teaches, that: God is a Good God. He is Gracious and Merciful and He loves us human beings. He wants us to receive Jesus Christ, who is the Living Word, in our spirit. God is faithful and He does not forsake anyone who believes in Him and His Word.

If you believe in Jesus Christ, who is the Living Word and if you receive The Word, which is Love, Purity, Righteousness, Peace and Joy, a.s.o. in your spirit, then Christ, who is The Word, has the possibility, to change your life from darkness into light. Because The Bible says, that: "Therefore if the Son (who is the Word) makes you free, you shall be free indeed."John 8:36. (New King James Version) See symbol above to the right.
My prayer is that all of You who are reading this homepage might be blessed by God and that You might receive Grace, to understand the Holy message about the Salvation and Sanctification within your spirit before it is to late. God bless You all.

I will in the future present more messages of The Apostolic Church in English, here on my homepages.

I hope you will overlook if the English translation is not correct.
Greetings Street missionary
Bror Espegren
Vretgränd 17 Uppsala Sweden